Alone en la vida

I seriously say I do not want to live alone, but why at the two days I think other kinds. I love all the people who come away from me. Why? from the beginning until today. I do not want an end like this. Today you told me you had own reasons and do not ask you why, and I kind of huh? obviously right. I love you and you're good to me. Then I send a messages and you not even reply and not answer it, why? I knew that day I do not want to talk and contact with you at all but it is just joke, and I do not mean anything. and you have my message, but Im not reply it because I already sleep when you send the second message to me. I text the next day to you -"good morning:)" but you still not reply to me until today. Yesterday I call and the message did not lift. and I already promises to make your name at my picture. Then you online you just want to avoid an instant as if I'm away from my last message that you two times but you did not reply any of them. you say you're close to me is no reason itself. I really feel weird, why all this have to happen. These days I have lost you and some others. You never told me that I was not near the state lost one but I lost it all at one time.